Happy Thanksgiving

The moon hangs high in the sky and I wait in great anticipation
 for the sun to rise.

Celebrating my 21st Thanksgiving is one of pure joy this year.

I know there are some 
that may be celebrating 
there first Thanksgiving this year
and for them it is a bittersweet thing.
Enjoying the freedom, but paying the price.
Lord turn this day into nothing but pure sweetness for them.

I know there are some 
who have in the past few days lost those most 
precious to their hearts.
 And today is that first holiday not spent with them.
Hurt. Sad. Confused.
Lord give them comfort right now in this moment.

I know there are some
who's families are broken and separated right now.
Trying to navigate their way through this day
with not an ounce of normalcy.
Lord may this be a day of restoration and forgiveness in those families.

I know there are some who have a diagnosis
that has determined this is there last Thanksgiving Day.
Lord may you turn this day into a supernatural miraculous day
where all pain is gone from their bodies and they can enjoy their families.

Yet in all of this, you are still LORD.
And I praise You and Thank You for who You are.
I know your heart aches for everyone of us.
You ache for each of us to come 
to know and grow 
in the grace and knowledge of who you truly are.*

You are the God who
makes good what was meant for evil.*

You are the God who
gives and promises 
a heavenly hope 
for all those who believe in you.*

You are the God
who can restore 
the things broken in our lives.*

You are the God
who heals still even today.*

Lord I am thankful because every word
 in your Word is for me today.

I am thankful for your words in Exodus 20:5-6.

5...You must not bow down to them or worship them, for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God who will not tolerate your affection for any other gods. 
I lay the sins of the parents upon their children; the entire family is affected—even children in the third and fourth generations of those who reject me. 
But I lavish unfailing love for a thousand generations on those who love me and obey my commands. (my emphasis added)

Lord it's your words that bring me joy in these seasons of life.
Although I am not able to share in any
Thanksgiving season with my birth family. 
I can rejoice in knowing that we as husband and wife 
have broken the generational curse in our family line!  
We have chosen to not follow, bow down to, or agree to an organization claiming to be 
"The One True Religion."
An organization that at the very core, is the very root as to why my family is the way it is.
An entire family affected precisely down to the third and fourth generations 
because of believing and continuing to believe a false religion originated by a false prophet.

Some years, like last I struggle.  
But You Lord, God
 pick me right back up again and place me right 
where I need to be in your loving arms of acceptance and grace.

I live in the moment everyday 
knowing that breaking that generational curse will be worth it because
You, Lord will lavish unfailing love 
for a thousand generations on those who love you, (and oh do I ever love you) 
and obey (I will, Lord no matter how hard) your commands.

I wait  in anticipation for the day my house is filled with my children's
children and Your love still lavishly flowing down. Your will be done.
Lord you are the one who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.*

Lord, I lift my hands and heart in praise to you today on this
Thanksgiving Day 2013.

* 2 Peter 3:18 ~ Genesis 50:20 ~ 
Colossians 1:5 ~ Jeremiah 32:27 ~ 
Psalm 30:2 ~ Psalm 147:3

today Lord I enter into your gates with 
thanksgiving and a thank offering and into your courts with praise!
I am thankful for you Lord.
I bless and affectionately praise your Magnificent name!
Lord you are so good, and your mercy and loving-kindness are everlasting.
 Lord your faithfulness and truth endure to all generations.*
Psalm 100:4,5

*Images taken and found on Google Images

15 Years Ago Today

Lord as I penned the date in my writings and time with You this morning
and as I looked out and up at the gray skies that linger above
 I am swept back in time 15 years ago.

They told me, and the audience before them;
 “ As time passes, we would soon forget him
days would come and go where we wouldn't remember him. 
 That he tried to be one of us, he worked hard to be one of us
but never believed, never attained it 
becoming a Jehovah Witness.”

 You know the words that were spoken of my father the day he passed
 and in the days that followed when the funeral came and went.

Tears poured out of me like an avalanche
 the congregation saying;
 “If you would only come back
all would be o.k. 
I could handle my father's death so much better.”

The uncontrollable tears 
were not because I missed the congregation
 or wanted to go back.
 I was broken
 that my dad was not given the due respect or honor of his life.
 That all were told; he would soon be forgotten.

15 years and yes it feels like 15 years; it has gone by so slow. 
 I miss him.
 I am reminded of him every time 
I look out at that willow tree
the last tree he planted in the spring before his passing that fall.

Sure things have flown by in these 15 years. 
 Sometimes my marriage feels like the daunting 15 years 
that you can imagine. 
More often though it seems like we were just married yesterday.
Because, You Lord
 have reunited and rekindled that love.
15 years and 5 children later.
 Yes feels like only yesterday that it all began.
 But for the loss of my dad time has moved so slowly.

Lord, you know my dad was silent, he didn't have a voice.
Or maybe he did, but he never let us kids see it. 
 He tried so hard to please mom but never really could.
 He never reacted. He never yelled. He was silent. He was compliant.

I hang on to the one card that was written by one of dad's co-workers that said;
 “ Sonny, we know believed in the after-life.” 
 I know after life can mean a lot of things to a lot of different people. 
But for dad; he worked with those guys for 30 + years
and I believe he shared with them at some point
 what he believed about you Lord. 
I can't know for sure, but I hope.

Lord, if my dad were here today this is what I would say to him
 and if he is with you today
would you please pass these words on to him for me:

Dad I found The Truth!
 It's not the one mom told us it was.
 I found Jesus.
 He told me in His Word, the Bible.
No man told me.
God told me Himself!

  He is The Way
The Truth
 and The Life 
and no one can come to the Father except through me.*
 That doesn't mean just saying “in Jesus name we pray” and I'm good to go.
Oh, no no it's so much more!

Dad, Jesus is real! Alive!
He is God; not just a man, not just a good teacher, not just a prophet.
 He is so much more.
 He is God!

I have seen the glory of God.

The whole earth is full of His glory.*

 Dad I can't stay silent about this!
 Yes, I have lost mom over this. 
 I pray to God all the time, every minute of every day it seems
I am in agreement with what God says about himself. 
 Yes some may want to call me a Jesus freak
but you know I've been called worse.
 I can handle this one.
Dad I found the key to eternal life. 
 It's a relationship with Him.
 It's spending time with Him. 
 It's living my life for Him.
 It's adjusting and making myself available to Him.
 It's agreeing and going about willingly doing
the things He asks of me to do and not do. 

It's what I've found in the Bible.
I found that:
Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.*

It's knowing and accepting that:
The wages of sin is death
but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.*

And not fully comprehending but believing that:
God so loved the world
 (that's me, that He loved me enough)
 that he gave his one and only Son
 that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.* *

Dad I know the I AM.*
The I Am the Bread of Life.*
The I Am the Light of the World.*
The I Am the Good Shepherd.*
The I am the Resurrection and the Life.*
The I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.*
The I am the True Vine.*

Dad I broke the generational curse
for my kids
 your grandkids! 
Oh dad, I miss you. 
 I wish they would have been able to 
hug you
play with you
have you teach them things in your garage.
 Dad I will do my best raising them in the ways of God.
It is my sole responsibility as a mom.
 I know you would be proud.
 I just want my Heavenly Father to be pleased as well.

Today I remember you, and one day has not gone by that I have forgotten you.
 So what they said 15 years ago
 was just another opportunity for me to believe yet another lie.

 What was meant for evil
 I trust and believe with my whole heart
 that God will use it for good
 the saving of many lives.*

 I'm gonna go back and get 'em dad!
 All in and through the power of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior!

Thank you for your love and comfort today.

*John 14:6; Isaiah 6:3; Romans 10:13; Romans 6:23; John 3:16*my emphasis added

*Exodus 3:14 – John 8:58; John 6:35; John 8:12; John 10:11; John 11:25; John 14:6; John 15:1

*Genesis 50:20


Sunny, 79 degrees, and a light crisp breeze in the air. 
The season went from winter to summer. 
Some how spring this year didn't find its
way to this neck of the woods.
Every errand Mom had to do that day was on the opposite side of town.
Between appointments going back and forth, from pick ups and drop offs, 
see had encountered 
the same 4 way stop, the same intersection, the same turns; right going there, and left coming back. 
4 times, in a span of 30 minutes.

While stopped at that intersection, 
before she had ever noticed the marquee scrolling the events for the weekend
she noticed the little girl in her long white dress with her white cotton sweater, and the little boy all primed and ready in his blue suit
 gingham checked shirt and tie holding mommy's hand.
Both eager to skip across the walk-way as soon as the signal gave way.

A tear instantly fell down her face knowing exactly who those children were.
That one tear instantly turned to hundreds
 her eyes now cloudy
would she clear those tears 
before the light turned green and she had to step on the gas and go.

Through all those tears she saw herself 31 years ago.
She was skipping.
She was happy.
She was eager to go across the walk-way.
She was doing what she knew life to be.
She didn't know 
people were questioning her where abouts, or why she was in town.
She didn't know
 she was different.
She didn't know
 the whispers were about her.
She didn't know
 the people on the streets passing her by in their cars 
didn't know what she knew.
She thought everybody knew.
She thought everybody understood.
She didn't know that she was different.
She didn't know...

With the busyness of the day
daytime quickly turned to evening.

With the oldest daughter out working for the evening
and the other two daughters at a sleep over
they were left with only the two little boys on a Friday evening.
Mom says
"Let's go out to dinner.  It won't cost as much we only have two of the kids tonight."
Dad says, "Sure why not."
Dad chooses the restaurant for the evening and they come to yet again
the same 4 way stop, the same intersection, the same turns, right going there, and left coming back
Mom realizes it will be a long wait in the restaurant, and questions if it's even worth the time and effort. 

She realizes; they have all been let out for the day.

As Mom enter's the restaurant with her family
she is surprised by how comfortable she feels.
The feelings of awkwardness are gone.
The feelings of being an outcast are gone.
The feeling of rejection is long gone.
The feeling of unwontedness is a thing of the past.

Mom is wearing a skirt.
They think she is one of them.
They think that she is one that has
been let out for the day.
To yet return tomorrow and the next.
But Mom doesn't have her badge on.

Small hello's are exchanged.
Light friendly gestures are made.
Mom makes small conversation with the lady to the left of her
 as each wait for their table to become ready.

Now 20 minutes into the meal.
Dad says:  "I wonder how many were there today?"
I say: "7,620!"
Dad says (in shock, amazement, and shear unbelievablenes
 (I know that's not even a word) : 
"Ah-ha, you pretended to be one of them, when you were talking to that lady!"
I with a smile said;
"I will use what God gave me!"

I will forever from that day forward:
Make good what was meant for evil!

I will forever from that day forward:
Be Christ like and show loving-kindness to those that have despised me.

I will forever from that day forward:
Be the light in the darkness.

I will forever from that day forward:
Forgive 70 X 7.

I will forever from that day forward:
Love those that are so regularly rejected, and misunderstood;
that little girl in her long white dress and white cotton sweater.

I will forever from that day forward:
Drive a stake in the ground and lay claim 
to One Life
One Focused Goal
and One God! *

There was a reason that day 
that I had encountered that same
 4 way stop, that same intersection, the same turns right going there, and left coming back
So that I could pray for all 7,620 in attendance on that 
Friday's District Convention 
of Jehovah's Witnesses.

And I will forever from that day forward:
Pray for every 
wondering former Jehovah's Witness
not knowing where to turn
 that they may come to know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior.
For there is freedom only in Him.

And I will forever from that day forward:
Pray for every Jehovah's Witness
to come out of the darkness and into Light and
the Truth of God's Word.
Genesis 50:20
Matthew 5:44
John 1:5
Matthew 18:21-23

*Beth Moore-James Mercy Triumphs Bible Study

How Do You Do It?

As a mother to Five
I get asked quite often
"How do you do it ?"

People are watching
People are looking
People are observing

What I do
day in and out
is "normal" to me.

I don't feel that
I do anything different
than what may be the "norm."

My "norm" growing up
was going door to door
witnessing to people
trying to tell them how they are on the wrong side.

The wrong side of how to do things.
The wrong side of life.
The wrong side of God.
That was the "norm" then.

I was use to being watched, observed, looked upon
For error
 how I'm not doing it
 "quite right."

So for me to think about people watching how I parent, or run my house 
"doing it all" shouldn't come as a surprise, but it does.

Is there something I'm not sharing?
Do I have a "Secret weapon in my back pocket?"
Is it "Top Secret and Confidential?"
Could I just "Let the cat out of the bag?"


But only this once...

This is what works for me
My Bible and My Coffee !

Can Anything Good Come From Nazareth?

Hello readers of Veracity.
It has been over one month since we last connected.
Thank you for always checking back to see what is going on here at Veracity.

I can't say I've been busy 
I won't use that excuse.
If I may be completely honest with you
I would have to say I have been
like Jacob.
Wrestling with God. 

Interesting how my oldest son Isaac
joined wrestling for the first time this year.
It was a short season, lasting of about  3 months.
It was a long and hard season on mommy (me).
A different long and hard season on him.

Jacob wrestled with God.
Jacob's name was changed to Israel
because "he had struggled with God and with humans
and had overcome. " *

I know that you have struggled just like I have
with God and humans, but have we overcome?

This is what I have been seeking God in this past month.
Have I overcome?
"Can Anything Good Come From Nazareth?" *

Lord, Can anything good 
come from being raised as a Jehovah's Witness?

At times throughout my life
I would have been the first to say no.
Again being honest at times, there are days
 my thoughts sometimes go to no.

I would never speak it out loud.
I will not give voice to such a lie.
But those thoughts do come to mind.

We all have a purpose.
We all have a voice.
We all have an opportunity
to make right what was wrong.

The good that came out of the wrong
was me finding Christ.

The good that came out of the wrong
is my heavenly hope with Christ.

The good that came out of the wrong
is I am saved by faith and not works. *

The good that came out of the wrong
is that I have been adopted into a family
God's family. *
A family that wants me, for me.
A family that loves and does not reject.

Look for the good.
Seek out the good.
Ask God about the good.

And He will say, and I can say
just like Philip
"Come and see!" *

You will see Jesus if you believe. *
You will overcome
 because Christ has overcome the world. *

* Genesis 32:28, John 1:46, Ephesians 2:8, Galatians 4:4-6, John 1:49-51, John 16:33

Ephesians 1:19-22a

19"I pray that YOU will begin to understand
 the incredible greatness of his power for us who BELIEVE him.
  This is the same mighty power 20 that raised Christ from the dead
 and seated him in the place 
of honor at God's right hand in the heavenly realms. 
21 Now he (Christ) 
is far above
ANY ruler 
or authority
 or power
or leader
else in this world or in the world to come. 
22 And God has put all things under the authority of Christ..."
[Capitalization, Boldness and Italics added for emphasis]

When the torment begins in my mind.
My opposers.
The accusers of my past.
The ones who want to call me out or pull me aside.
When the enemy; Satan
 wants to tell me that persecution will come at me from every side.
And it will; that persecution will come.

I say the words Jesus said;
"Get out of here, Satan!"
and he leaves.
{Matthew 4:10}

There is not a 
Charles Taze Russell
or a 
Joseph Franklin Rutherford
or a 
Governing Body
or a
Circuit Overseer
or an
or a 
Ministerial Servant
or a 
Regular Pioneer
or a 
Family Member;

ALL who are
conducting under the spirit of Satan 
from my past that has 
or authority
over me today!

I am going forward in faith


believing and trusting what Jesus said;

"I tell you The Truth, 
anyone who believes in me
 will do the same works I have done, 
and even greater works..."
John 14:12

Jesus is 
the way
the life.
John 14:6

[Boldness, Capitalization, Italics and Underlining added for emphasis]

*Image taken from Google Images


The hardest thing is forgiveness.
You wait for the apology
When it doesn't come
You sit...
Wait some more...

It wouldn't really matter 
or when 
or how
They would of said they were sorry
I've already made up my mind
How it should be done
How it should be said
How the tone should be
How it should all play out.

The years of anger
The years of torment
The years of unforgiveness.
All amounted
To years of me doing nothing.
All amounted 
To years of me being bitter.
All amounted
To years lost.

I allowed them to have power
Over me.
I allowed them to have control;
Years after I was gone.
I allowed them to have a say
In my life for way to long.



I lost my identity.
I lost time...
I lost my life.
I lost time.....
I lost relationships
I lost time...
 figuring out who I was
And who God created me to be.

All because I didn't forgive.
All because I wanted to prove a point.
All because I thought I was making them suffer.
When really I was the one suffering, losing, and dying inside.

So I say to you today

"Blessed are you when people 
Insult you and persecute you
 And falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Christ.
I'm asking you 
To Love your enemies
 and pray for those who persecute you.
For if you forgive others who have sinned against you,
Your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
But if you do not forgive others
Then your Father will not forgive your sins.
In the way you judge others, you will be judged.
But Lord
 How often shall they sin against me and I forgive them?
Seventy times Seven.
Forgive, if you have anything against anyone.
I know you can
Love your enemies
 And do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return.
Forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.
And always remember 
That God demonstrated His own love toward you
In that while you were yet a sinner
Christ died for you."

"Forgiveness is an act of the will,
 and the will can function regardless
 of the temperature of the heart."
.-Corrie Ten Boom-

Matthew 5:11,44, Matthew 6:14-15, Matthew 7:2
Matthew 18:21-22, Mark 11:25, Luke 6:25-37
 Luke 23:34, Romans 5:8

*Please enjoy this video I created for you.*


In this new year I challenged you to discover who you are.

One realization I've discovered is this:
Almost every time someone stops by the house,
or if I'm hanging out at someone else's home,
I tend to grab a magazine and start thumbing through it.
I find myself needing to keep busy.
Sitting still does not come easy for me.
(I guess that is one of the side effects of raising 5 children.)

Another observation
  about myself is
 I always look 
at a magazine
from back to front.

Why?  I don't know why.  I just do.

I don't know if it's
the excitement
of getting to the end
wanting to know and see the whole picture
not wanting to miss out
or just habit.

Before I read the bible
there are a couple lines from a couple verses
that always flash through my mind
and stir in my heart.
Interestingly those couple of verses are at the 
 back or end of the bible.

...If anyone adds anything to them...
...And if anyone takes words away...

Revelation 22:18-19
18I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this scroll:
If anyone adds anything to them,
 God will add to that person the plagues described in this scroll.
19And if anyone takes words away
 from this scroll of prophecy,
God will take away from that person 
any share in the tree of life and in the Holy City, 
which are described in this scroll.

Whenever I set out to separate truth from lies.
set out before me, side by side
I have the bible- Truth 
I have the NWT(New World Translation-Jehovah's Witness Bible)- Lies.

There are verses that begin to stir in me that won't allow me to sit still.
I feel a sense of urgency to unveil to you 
what has been unveiled to me.

One verse in particular get's me going every time it never fails.
John 1:1 KJV
The Bible reads:
In the beginning was the Word, 
and the Word was with God,
 and the Word was God.

The NWT reads:
In [the] beginning the Word was,
 and the Word was with God,
 and the Word was  god. **

Stay with me here...

Now remember 
I do not hold any bachelors, masters, or doctrinal degrees 
in English, grammer, punctuation, The Dictionary or of any such related topics.
I do not hold any degree for that matter.  Which could be held against me by some.
However I am a layman/laywoman who wants the truth so I dig.
I dig, and pray, and wait for "The Truth" to be revealed to me by God through his word.

Now if I take John 1:1 and parallel them I see that

  in the 1st line there are some words moved around
the 2nd line is the same
and the 3rd line a word is added.
One letter. One word.

The first letter of the English alphabet.
Definition according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary on-line:
A; is used as a function word.
A; is used as a function word before a singular noun followed by a restrictive modifier
Example:  a man who was here yesterday
Any: a man who is sick can't work

Interesting Any...
Definition Any: one or some indiscriminately of whatever kind:
one or another taken at random.

This one letter, this one word
may not seem like much to some.
Some have said
"What does it matter?"
"Your bible says that, ours says this, it's really the same thing."

This one  added  word
changes, denies, and ultimately strips Christ of his deity.

It is one of the beginning processes
of the mind stripping
mind controlling
the reprogramming
 of who God is and who God is not according to Jehovah's Witnesses.
This is one of the defining doctrinal beliefs in the Jehovah's Witness Organization
that Jesus is not God.

We have been told to say and fully believe, be fully convinced
"That yes indeed we believe in Jesus."
"That we don't deny Him."
"Yes as a Jehovah Witness
we believe that Jesus existed
that he walked this earth."
"Jesus was The Greatest Teacher who Ever Lived."
"He is the example we are to follow."
"He is like a god."
"He is godlike, but not God."

He would fall into the any, category according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary.

We were told to say these things at each door we knocked on.
"Yes that of course we believe in the same person."
However as you begin to study, and learn, and go deeper into the
doctrine of Jehovah's Witnesses
we were told
that Jesus is
A god.
That he is in fact Michael the Arc Angel.
That Jesus is not coming back.
That Jesus was not with God before creation.
There is a plethora of lies told about Jesus
that I once believed.

A god?



God always was.
He was not created.
He was not an after thought.
Jesus is God.
Jesus is God in the flesh.

He is not
He is not just some other idol or god to think about believing in, or worshiping
for some sort of spiritual enlightenment.
Not to be used for a good energy or vibe to feel.
Once again, not to be thrown into the any category.

He is God.
The God to be revered.
The God to be respected.
The God that has all of life in Him and through Him.
The God who created all things.
The One and Only God.

He is the One who wants you to come to know Him.
He wants you to be free and know
"The Truth."
He doesn't want you to be bound any longer.
He doesn't want you sitting in limbo.
He wants to unveil to you
Who He is.

He says;
"I am the Alpha and the Omega--the beginning and the end,"says the Lord God.
  " I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come--the Almighty One."
Revelation 1:8

It amazes me what one little-BIG word
added to God's word can do.
It can strip God of everything He is.

*Revelation 22:18-19 (my emphasis added)
** My emphasis added on  A .

New Year Challenge-Discover Who You Are...

I'm 38 years old.
Most women don't like to share their age
I on the other hand, don't have any qualms about it.
Maybe that will change once I turn 40 or 50
but for now
I feel like I've just begun to live these past 8 years.

As I discover more about myself
my likes, my dislikes
what brings me up and what takes me down
I get more familiar with
me, myself, and I.

One thing I have made an observation about
 is that if you were born and raised as a Jehovah's Witness
things for you are slightly different
then if you entered the organization as an adult.

When entering the organization as an adult
you entered with a free-open mind.
You fell into a trap
were mislead for a time
but were able to make
 and begin the process
of breaking through the trap to that place of being free once again.
Able to adapt back into "the real world."

Being born and raised as a Jehovah's Witness
you are conditioned from infancy on.
How you acted
was normal
inside the organization.
A place where things are decided for you and
you learn to not question
and you always go with the flow.
Making decisions do not always come easy.
Adapting in "the real word" is different.
 It's a whole new world.
Language, lingo, academics, jokes, every day banter
 in "the real word"
is foreign when you come out of the organization.

When you come from a mind controlling background
 there comes a day when you question
Who am I?

Freedom can seem overwhelming.
Sometimes that freedom takes you further than you ever thought you'd go.

When most people have had a lifetime
 to develop social skills
voice their opinion-admitting likes and dislikes
practice the 1st amendment-freedom of speech
these everyday normal ways of life
  can sometimes feel like a daunting task and may pose to be a challenge.

I want to challenge you in this
New Year.

Discover who you are.
Begin to admit your likes and dislikes.
Ask God who He made you to be.

Here's a little bit of what God spoke to me when I began my self discovery 8 years ago.

"You know who you are
You are the girl
 who had her room painted pink and still love pink.

You are the girl
who loved to swing on the tire swing under the willow tree.

You are the girl
who was every bit girly girl
and every bit tom boy because of all those brothers.
You are the girl 
who loves to give special gifts.
You are that girl
who is loyal to the bitter end.
Just be who I created you to be."

What is holding you back from discovering who you truly are?

If there's something or someone you need to go see-Then Go.

If you need to just go discover the forgotten-Then Go.

If it's starting a whole new beginning-Then Go.

But go with the Love that is stirring within you this very moment.

38 years ago there was a love that brought me into this world
every new direction
every new discovery
every new step I take
where ever I go off too...
 I make sure I take that same Love with me.
Christ the Creator of my beginning.

The miracle isn't the life I missed.
It's the life I got.