Logic

There was a time in my life 

that I was fully convinced I had all the answers.

Of course by all means

 it wasn't a pride thing, I just knew

 and you didn't.

I knew how to

 teach you

 tell you

 and train you

 on how to become one of God's chosen ones.

I had it ALL figured out!

There's 

a system

 a process

a working to get your way in.

How? 

Through 

logic

 through process of elimination.

By way of not questioning the answers given to me by man.

I knew that when you stumped me on a question

 that I didn't have the answer,

I wrote you off as 

"Worldly."

 A lost cause.

Or

"We'll see who wins in the end."

What arrogance I once had. 

 What pride. 

What righteousness. Self righteousness.

Logic:

Reasoning conducted or assessed according to strict principles of validity.

I have always earned for greater knowledge. 

 I have always wanted an answer for everything.

Life was logical. 

Relationships were logical.

 God was logical.

Oh but God...

I like Nicodemus tried ever so hard to come to know Christ through logic, through human reasoning, through past beliefs, through process of elimination.

"Rabbi, we know that You have come from God as a teacher; for no one can do these signs that You do unless God is with him." John 3:2-ESV English Standard Version

Makes Sense.

Logic:

Coming to God based off of what I know to be "truth."

Coming to God in my way, 

when I have everything sorted out.

Coming to God when I have all my knowledge put together.

All my ducks in a row.

I had a lifetime of old beliefs "logic"keeping me stuck and stagnant.

Hence, why I sat in limbo for 13 years!

I kept trying to understand through my mind

my eyes

my strength 

and my will.

Coming face to face with the question

"Do I believe Jesus was God?" "Do I believe Jesus is God?"

As I searched and read through scripture, that's all that would ever come up.

Everywhere I turned it was that one daunting question.

When I was all out of logic and ready to lose my mind

it was then that I slid my mind aside

and slide my heart in place 

and by faith not fully understanding believed.

Believed in 

Jesus as God!

When logic comes in...

  I tell myself

"By faith"...

Logic...

"By FAITH"...

Not by a system, not by works, BUT BY FAITH!

God saved you (me) by his grace when you (I) believed.  And you (I) can't take credit for this; it is a gift from God.  Salvation is not a reward for the good things we (I) have done, so none of us (I) can boast about it.  Ephesians 2:8-9 NLT (me, and I-my additions)

I BELIEVE!