It Is Only Now

They told me the shunning would help in bringing me back.
I was told shunning would bring me to repentance.
Repentance before man.

Of all the hard things
the worst
 is the shunning.

"For if I do not repent before man
then the congregation will shun you
along with family too."
"Forget the one wondering lost sheep
she has chosen to go her own way."
"Don't worry this will make her come back."

That ploy did not work on me.
Shunning pushed me further away.
Falling into all kinds of rebellion.

Wanting desperately to receive
just one look
just one word
 even a negative word
 just to get some sort of reaction
some sort of communication
some kind of response.

Nothing. Shunned.

By there shunning
  they believe they have won.
Believing they have the upper hand on me.
They are right and I am wrong.
They are
 "In the Truth"
and I am an apostate.

Truth be told;
For I can not be an apostate
 I was never told the Truth.

I can only be an apostate
 if I 
talk against, deny, or blaspheme
the Truth of
 my Lord and Saviour Jesus.

For that I have not done
for I did not know Him at that time. 

It Is Only Now
 that I have discovered
The Truth.

It Is Only Now
that I know
 I was chosen and set apart.

It Is Only Now
 that I understand
 that I would leave
 my mother and brothers to follow Christ.

 It Is Only Now 
that I believe
 with my entire
soul and spirit 
that I was brought to this place for 
God to show me 
that what they enemy meant for evil 
 God will make for good
the saving of many lives.

It Is Only Now
that I will never turn back and always go forward

because God picked me out as his from the very start.
  Think of it: included in God's original plan of salvation 
by the bond of faith in 

 now I take a firm stand
 feet on the ground
 and head high.  
Keeping a tight grip
 on what I've been taught
 Jesus himself and God the Father
 have reached out in love to me
with an unending help and confidence
put a fresh heart in me.

From this Living Truth I will never leave.

John 15:16, Luke 14:25-27, Genesis 50:20
2 Thessalonians 2:13-17-The Message Bible

1 comment:

  1. "Those who once walked in darkness have seen a great light; to those who lived in the land of the shadow of death, a light has dawned....for unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on His shoulders. And He will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." Isa. 9:2,6. Thank you, Lord for bring Melissa into the light.