Losing

The hardest thing is forgiveness.

You wait for the apology

And

When it doesn't come

You sit...

And 

Wait some more...

It wouldn't really matter 

if 

or when 

or how

They would of said they were sorry

Because

I've already made up my mind

How it should be done

How it should be said

How the tone should be

How it should all play out.

The years of anger

The years of torment

The years of unforgiveness.

All amounted

To years of me doing nothing.

All amounted 

To years of me being bitter.

All amounted

To years lost.

I allowed them to have power

Over me.

I allowed them to have control;

Years after I was gone.

I allowed them to have a say

In my life for way to long.

Losing.

Yes!

I lost my identity.

I lost time...

I lost my life.

I lost time.....

I lost relationships

I lost time...

 figuring out who I was

And who God created me to be.

All because I didn't forgive.

All because I wanted to prove a point.

All because I thought I was making them suffer.

When really I was the one suffering, losing, and dying inside.

So I say to you today

Forgive!

Why?

Because

"Blessed are you when people 

Insult you and persecute you

 And falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Christ.

Because 

I'm asking you 

To Love your enemies

 and pray for those who persecute you.

Because

For if you forgive others who have sinned against you,

Your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

But if you do not forgive others

Then your Father will not forgive your sins.

Remember

In the way you judge others, you will be judged.

But Lord

 How often shall they sin against me and I forgive them?

Seventy times Seven.

Please

Forgive, if you have anything against anyone.

I know you can

Love your enemies

 And do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return.

Forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.

And always remember 

That God demonstrated His own love toward you

In that while you were yet a sinner

Christ died for you."

"Forgiveness is an act of the will,

 and the will can function regardless

 of the temperature of the heart."

.-Corrie Ten Boom-

Matthew 5:11,44, Matthew 6:14-15, Matthew 7:2

Matthew 18:21-22, Mark 11:25, Luke 6:25-37

 Luke 23:34, Romans 5:8

*Please enjoy this video I created for you.*

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In this new year I challenged you to discover who you are.

One realization I've discovered is this:

Almost every time someone stops by the house,

or if I'm hanging out at someone else's home,

I tend to grab a magazine and start thumbing through it.

I find myself needing to keep busy.

Sitting still does not come easy for me.

(I guess that is one of the side effects of raising 5 children.)

Another observation

  about myself is

 I always look 

at a magazine

from back to front.

Why?  I don't know why.  I just do.

I don't know if it's

the excitement
of getting to the end

wanting to know and see the whole picture

not wanting to miss out

or just habit.

Before I read the bible

there are a couple lines from a couple verses
that always flash through my mind
and stir in my heart.
Interestingly those couple of verses are at the 

 back or end of the bible.

...If anyone adds anything to them...
...And if anyone takes words away...

Revelation 22:18-19* 

18I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this scroll:

If anyone adds anything to them,

 God will add to that person the plagues described in this scroll.

19And if anyone takes words away

 from this scroll of prophecy,

God will take away from that person 

any share in the tree of life and in the Holy City, 

which are described in this scroll.

Whenever I set out to separate truth from lies.

Meaning:
set out before me, side by side
I have the bible- Truth 

and

I have the NWT(New World Translation-Jehovah's Witness Bible)- Lies.

There are verses that begin to stir in me that won't allow me to sit still.

I feel a sense of urgency to unveil to you 

what has been unveiled to me.

One verse in particular get's me going every time it never fails.

John 1:1 KJV

The Bible reads:

In the beginning was the Word, 

and the Word was with God,

 and the Word was God.

The NWT reads:

In [the] beginning the Word was,

 and the Word was with God,

 and the Word was  A god. **

Stay with me here...

Now remember 

I do not hold any bachelors, masters, or doctrinal degrees 

in English, grammer, punctuation, The Dictionary or of any such related topics.

I do not hold any degree for that matter.  Which could be held against me by some.

However I am a layman/laywoman who wants the truth so I dig.
I dig, and pray, and wait for "The Truth" to be revealed to me by God through his word.

Now if I take John 1:1 and parallel them I see that

  in the 1st line there are some words moved around

the 2nd line is the same

and the 3rd line a word is added.

One letter. One word.

A

The first letter of the English alphabet.
A

Definition according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary on-line:
A; is used as a function word.
A; is used as a function word before a singular noun followed by a restrictive modifier
Example:  a man who was here yesterday
Any: a man who is sick can't work

Interesting Any...
Definition Any: one or some indiscriminately of whatever kind:
one or another taken at random.

This one letter, this one word
may not seem like much to some.
Some have said
"What does it matter?"
"Your bible says that, ours says this, it's really the same thing."

This one  added  word
changes, denies, and ultimately strips Christ of his deity.

It is one of the beginning processes
of the mind stripping
mind controlling
the reprogramming
 of who God is and who God is not according to Jehovah's Witnesses.
This is one of the defining doctrinal beliefs in the Jehovah's Witness Organization
that Jesus is not God.

We have been told to say and fully believe, be fully convinced
"That yes indeed we believe in Jesus."
"That we don't deny Him."
"Yes as a Jehovah Witness
we believe that Jesus existed
that he walked this earth."
"Jesus was The Greatest Teacher who Ever Lived."
"He is the example we are to follow."
"He is like a god."
"He is godlike, but not God."

He would fall into the any, category according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary.

We were told to say these things at each door we knocked on.
"Yes that of course we believe in the same person."
However as you begin to study, and learn, and go deeper into the
doctrine of Jehovah's Witnesses
we were told
that Jesus is
A god.
That he is in fact Michael the Arc Angel.
That Jesus is not coming back.
That Jesus was not with God before creation.
There is a plethora of lies told about Jesus
that I once believed.

A god?

NO!

GOD!

God always was.
He was not created.
He was not an after thought.
Jesus is God.
Jesus is God in the flesh.

He is not
A god.
He is not just some other idol or god to think about believing in, or worshiping
for some sort of spiritual enlightenment.
Not to be used for a good energy or vibe to feel.
Once again, not to be thrown into the any category.

He is God.
The God to be revered.
The God to be respected.
The God that has all of life in Him and through Him.
The God who created all things.
The One and Only God.

He is the One who wants you to come to know Him.
He wants you to be free and know
"The Truth."
He doesn't want you to be bound any longer.
He doesn't want you sitting in limbo.
He wants to unveil to you
Who He is.
GOD


He says;
"I am the Alpha and the Omega--the beginning and the end,"says the Lord God.
  " I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come--the Almighty One."

Revelation 1:8

It amazes me what one little-BIG word
A
added to God's word can do.
It can strip God of everything He is.

*Revelation 22:18-19 (my emphasis added)
** My emphasis added on  A .