Happy Thanksgiving

The moon hangs high in the sky and I wait in great anticipation

 for the sun to rise.

Celebrating my 21st Thanksgiving is one of pure joy this year.

Lord, 

I know there are some 

that may be celebrating 

there first Thanksgiving this year

and for them it is a bittersweet thing.

Enjoying the freedom, but paying the price.

Lord turn this day into nothing but pure sweetness for them.

Lord,

I know there are some 

who have in the past few days lost those most 

precious to their hearts.

 And today is that first holiday not spent with them.

Hurt. Sad. Confused.

Lord give them comfort right now in this moment.

Lord,

I know there are some

who's families are broken and separated right now.

Trying to navigate their way through this day

with not an ounce of normalcy.

Lord may this be a day of restoration and forgiveness in those families.

Lord,

I know there are some who have a diagnosis

that has determined this is there last Thanksgiving Day.

Lord may you turn this day into a supernatural miraculous day

where all pain is gone from their bodies and they can enjoy their families.

Yet in all of this, you are still LORD.

And I praise You and Thank You for who You are.

I know your heart aches for everyone of us.

You ache for each of us to come 

to know and grow 

in the grace and knowledge of who you truly are.*

You are the God who

makes good what was meant for evil.*

You are the God who

gives and promises 

a heavenly hope 

for all those who believe in you.*

You are the God

who can restore 

the things broken in our lives.*

You are the God

who heals still even today.*

Lord I am thankful because every word

 in your Word is for me today.

I am thankful for your words in Exodus 20:5-6.

5...You must not bow down to them or worship them, for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God who will not tolerate your affection for any other gods. 

I lay the sins of the parents upon their children; the entire family is affected—even children in the third and fourth generations of those who reject me. 

6 But I lavish unfailing love for a thousand generations on those who love me and obey my commands. (my emphasis added)

Lord it's your words that bring me joy in these seasons of life.

Although I am not able to share in any

Thanksgiving season with my birth family. 

I can rejoice in knowing that we as husband and wife 

have broken the generational curse in our family line!  

We have chosen to not follow, bow down to, or agree to an organization claiming to be 

"The One True Religion."

An organization that at the very core, is the very root as to why my family is the way it is.

An entire family affected precisely down to the third and fourth generations 

because of believing and continuing to believe a false religion originated by a false prophet.

Some years, like last I struggle.  

But You Lord, God

 pick me right back up again and place me right 

where I need to be in your loving arms of acceptance and grace.

I live in the moment everyday 

knowing that breaking that generational curse will be worth it because

You, Lord will lavish unfailing love 

for a thousand generations on those who love you, (and oh do I ever love you) 

and obey (I will, Lord no matter how hard) your commands.

I wait  in anticipation for the day my house is filled with my children's

children and Your love still lavishly flowing down. Your will be done.

Lord you are the one who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.*

Lord, I lift my hands and heart in praise to you today on this

Thanksgiving Day 2013.

* 2 Peter 3:18 ~ Genesis 50:20 ~ 

Colossians 1:5 ~ Jeremiah 32:27 ~ 

Psalm 30:2 ~ Psalm 147:3

Lord

today Lord I enter into your gates with 

thanksgiving and a thank offering and into your courts with praise!

I am thankful for you Lord.

I bless and affectionately praise your Magnificent name!

Lord you are so good, and your mercy and loving-kindness are everlasting.

 Lord your faithfulness and truth endure to all generations.*

Psalm 100:4,5

*Images taken and found on Google Images

15 Years Ago Today

Lord as I penned the date in my writings and time with You this morning

and as I looked out and up at the gray skies that linger above

 I am swept back in time 15 years ago.

They told me, and the audience before them;

 “ As time passes, we would soon forget him

days would come and go where we wouldn't remember him. 

 That he tried to be one of us, he worked hard to be one of us

but never believed, never attained it 

becoming a Jehovah Witness.”

Lord

 You know the words that were spoken of my father the day he passed

 and in the days that followed when the funeral came and went.

Tears poured out of me like an avalanche

 the congregation saying;

 “If you would only come back

all would be o.k. 

I could handle my father's death so much better.”

The uncontrollable tears 

were not because I missed the congregation

 or wanted to go back.

 I was broken

 that my dad was not given the due respect or honor of his life.

 That all were told; he would soon be forgotten.

15 years and yes it feels like 15 years; it has gone by so slow. 

 I miss him.

 I am reminded of him every time 

I look out at that willow tree

the last tree he planted in the spring before his passing that fall.

Sure things have flown by in these 15 years. 

 Sometimes my marriage feels like the daunting 15 years 

that you can imagine. 

More often though it seems like we were just married yesterday.

Because, You Lord

 have reunited and rekindled that love.

15 years and 5 children later.

 Yes feels like only yesterday that it all began.

 But for the loss of my dad time has moved so slowly.

Lord, you know my dad was silent, he didn't have a voice.

Or maybe he did, but he never let us kids see it. 

 He tried so hard to please mom but never really could.

 He never reacted. He never yelled. He was silent. He was compliant.

I hang on to the one card that was written by one of dad's co-workers that said;

 “ Sonny, we know believed in the after-life.” 

 I know after life can mean a lot of things to a lot of different people. 

But for dad; he worked with those guys for 30 + years

and I believe he shared with them at some point

 what he believed about you Lord. 

I can't know for sure, but I hope.

Lord, if my dad were here today this is what I would say to him

 and if he is with you today

would you please pass these words on to him for me:

Dad I found The Truth!

 It's not the one mom told us it was.

 I found Jesus.

 He told me in His Word, the Bible.

No man told me.

God told me Himself!

  He is The Way

The Truth

 and The Life 

and no one can come to the Father except through me.*

 That doesn't mean just saying “in Jesus name we pray” and I'm good to go.

Oh, no no it's so much more!

Dad, Jesus is real! Alive!

He is God; not just a man, not just a good teacher, not just a prophet.

 He is so much more.

 He is God!

I have seen the glory of God.

The whole earth is full of His glory.*

 Dad I can't stay silent about this!

 Yes, I have lost mom over this. 

 I pray to God all the time, every minute of every day it seems

and  

I am in agreement with what God says about himself. 

 Yes some may want to call me a Jesus freak

but you know I've been called worse.

 I can handle this one.

Dad I found the key to eternal life. 

 It's a relationship with Him.

 It's spending time with Him. 

 It's living my life for Him.

 It's adjusting and making myself available to Him.

 It's agreeing and going about willingly doing

the things He asks of me to do and not do. 

It's what I've found in the Bible.

I found that:

Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.*

It's knowing and accepting that:

The wages of sin is death

but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.*

And not fully comprehending but believing that:

God so loved the world

 (that's me, that He loved me enough)

 that he gave his one and only Son

 that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.* *

Dad I know the I AM.*

The I Am the Bread of Life.*

The I Am the Light of the World.*

The I Am the Good Shepherd.*

The I am the Resurrection and the Life.*

The I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.*

The I am the True Vine.*

Dad I broke the generational curse

for my kids

 your grandkids! 

Oh dad, I miss you. 

 I wish they would have been able to 

hug you

play with you

have you teach them things in your garage.

 Dad I will do my best raising them in the ways of God.

It is my sole responsibility as a mom.

 I know you would be proud.

 I just want my Heavenly Father to be pleased as well.

Today I remember you, and one day has not gone by that I have forgotten you.

 So what they said 15 years ago

 was just another opportunity for me to believe yet another lie.

 What was meant for evil

 I trust and believe with my whole heart

 that God will use it for good

 the saving of many lives.*

 I'm gonna go back and get 'em dad!

 All in and through the power of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior!

Lord

Thank you for your love and comfort today.

Amen.

*John 14:6; Isaiah 6:3; Romans 10:13; Romans 6:23; John 3:16*my emphasis added

*Exodus 3:14 – John 8:58; John 6:35; John 8:12; John 10:11; John 11:25; John 14:6; John 15:1

*Genesis 50:20